day nine.

Day nine is here, and I’m a little confused on how that happened.
I mean. Fasting isn’t hard. But dang. Fasting is hard.
And yet this hasn’t been hard. So what is this? What is going on?
I feel cheated a bit.

My theory is I’ve been busy with my hands and mind, and that helps. Moving. Projects. Apothecary Circle. Daughters of Earth. Tattoos. One-on-One holistic lifestyle planning which I’ll be offering to the masses tomorrow during the equinox sale. Compiling master apothecary kits for the Circle.
….And looking for a new puppy.

Missing Tyler on top of all of that and no wonder I’m not itching to eat.

day nine has folded into my week, complete with sensitivities to cold/hot, feeling a little more emotional than usual, and an overwhelming need to “make my space cozy, and get cozy in it.” So here I am. Getting cozy. Cup of herbal tea, a soft fuzzy blue blanket, and Johnny Cash singing hymns that never get old. Day nine has me resting after a week of anything but rest. I need to carve out these kind of cozy moments more.

I’ve been doodling in my journal all morning about what I’m itching to do in the following weeks- Expand.

my vision.
expand my patience with silence.
apothecary circle registration.
expand my personal health routine.
and expand the container I can provide for other women willing to take the journey with me.

I feel like I’m getting a grasp on where I’m at. And whenever I do, things shift and fold into some new moment where I’m at loss again. I never viewed my life as a ‘path,’ but rather a series of building blocks to play and combine. And right now I’m building up the ability to expand past myself and I'm not sure what that looks like yet.

Expanding my health routine is a big one. I have so many gaps that I need to start filling with kale and laughter and an extra twenty minutes of sleeping in. I’ve been going through my routines and tweaking what needs to be tweaked. (Toothpaste is a big tweak going on right now….hello baking powder and peppermint oil).

If you haven’t considered signing up for the Daughters of Earth for October, do. Dive in with me. I’ve realized during this fast that I think I’m getting edgy with my own tendency to complain about my health, or get lost in daydreaming about what abundant health would like for me. No more putting it off. I’m ready to step up and do the work with a focused intention. Water, sunlight, and sleep. We all need a starting point.