...here's a big chunk of my day:
Cedar and I spent over an hour watching Josef up on the beams. Totally stuck and unsure how to get down. AKA: entertainment when Tyler isn't home.
in other news, it's my birthday.
I had no intentions of posting here today, as I previously mentioned. I couldn’t sleep as I was thinking about my 25th circle around the sun coming to an end, and how I want to dance the 26th one. As I alluded on Wednesday post, for a large part of my 25th year, I had no intentions of spinning another year. But here I am. More transparent than I feel comfortable with, with a belated new years resolution for healing.
Year 26 is spinning about with some big changes- especially with my business, and the way I relate with it. I recently discovered that I had an unspoken rule when it came to attracting clients for projects and groups. I wanted to work with souls willing to be fully present, open, and willing to do the hard work for growth. Yet so often my life is crazy and unorganized, lacking growth and results- not because I’m not doing the work. Trust me. I work from sun up to…sun up! Often forgetting to sleep in the process. But taking on everyone else without attending to my own body, my home, my partner, is how I robbed myself this past year.
It isn’t going to be easy to reshape my schedule, but it has to be done. Tyler and I have been flirting and discussing the idea of only offering Good Earth Living physical products once a month, or even once a quarter for a week. I like this idea for many reasons. First- it allows more time and space to open up. The constant cycle of creating, shipping, creating shipping robs all extra moments. The house becomes a disaster zone, while meals are a last minute pathetic attempt. Having a clear cut time for the process of creating and shipping with a start and an end, allows more flexibility in my life, and more time with the husband not spent around a batch of shipping boxes. Another great perks is that I can be fully present to consultations and ecourses, including the Apothecary Circle. So often my consultations end up on the back burner because I’m so busy meeting (and often failing!) shipping deadlines. My favorite part of this idea, however, is the ability to spend more time creating each item. Better quality products and thoughtful packaging is a WIN for everyone. I’m still not sure. What do you think?
Other priorities for my 26th circle around the sun includes:
-Weight Loss. Dropping the Lyme Disease weight. When I work with clients who are looking to control their weight, they are always surprised by my first question: “Is it in your best interest to drop weight right now?” Sometimes soul work needs to happen first. Other times the body needs to rest from physical trama before adapting to a new program. I’m finally physically and spiritually ready to start the shift. And I’m looking forward to it. My plan is simple, and has worked beautifully in the past for me, and for the gorgeous women I get to work with daily: Raw foods. Water. And playing. I would be back in my range if I dropped 25 pounds, but I want to live abundantly and thrive, so I’m shooting to be on the lower end of my range- 35 pounds….naturally, I need a month to flirt with all the foods I’ve been craving during this fast. :)
-New Meals! Folding 24 new divine meals into the dinner rotation. As much as I preach about raw foods, it might come as a surprise to know that I love cooking. I do. And I haven’t made time to try whipping up new dishes the past few years. Poor Tyler has been subjected to my Zuppa Toscana a million times now (which to be fair, it’s pretty yummy, and probably the recipe most people ask me for….remind me to share it with you soon). So I’m sure my husband is looking forward to this challenge over the next year. :)
-Read more. I’m horrible at carving time out to read, but I love it so. I think, to be compassionate with my time, I’m only going to hold myself accountable to reading one book per month. Doable, stress free, and important.
-...Coupon. This might be dorky, and I’ve only alluded to it once or twice before here on the blog: build up the stockpile. I do coupon. Like. Serious hardcore extreme couponing…without the b**** attitude showcased on that horrible show. But I completely abandoned the practice since my flare up happen in April. But I want to get back into it. It may be dorky, but I had a lot of satisfaction as being the Wife of the home to provide that little slice in our home. And I miss that. And I also miss the challenge. Living holistically and healthy while using coupons? Doable, but an adventure indeed!
-Beacons. This is probably my most important intention for year 26: figure out my baskets. In Soulstorm, the idea of how we have these light beacons- or baskets- that fill us up and replenish us came up in a lesson. Part of the soul work homework, if you will, is really targeting what our individual baskets are. I’ve been looking to identify 4 beacons in my life which keep me Full. I’ve only identified one: Cozy. My soul requires coziness in all its sexy forms. Lush blankets, new socks and slippers, the scent of the fireplace and the oh so feel good crackle of the wood, hot soup and crusty bread, and a clear and clean space to reside in. Coziness in my work. In my relationships. In the way I celebrate holidays and vacations. I want to build this and weave coziness in my life. And now I need to identify what the other three baskets are, and start collecting and gathering the tools.
-Willingess to be Seen. And finally, my last intention for 2013, is to be transparent. I’ve been trying, but I hold back, and I know I’m holding back. It frustrates me, stunts my growth, and keeps me from living within freedom. So transparency is my keyword for my 26th circle around the sun.
Perhaps a lot of goals and intentions, but I like having a clear direction. A lighthouse to guide me through the waters. On the up side, I have two years left before any signs of a saturn return come about, if you believe in such a thing. I’m not sure what I think about it- I just know everyone I know goes a bit crazy between 28-30. Real or not, I'm sure my blog space here during that time will prove to be a good read. :)
ps: ...13 days left to go until belated birthday cake!...Well. Actually more like 15, so I can transition back into solids safely. But then? Birthday Cake! Woohoo!